Tuesday, April 25, 2006

The Unknown Soldier

I always have heard about the "tomb of the unknown soldier". I guess there are quite a few around the country and maybe even around the world. It's sad to think that these men fell for our happiness and we don't know who they are.

I feel a little the same when I pray for "the girl" (that's how have to refer to her in my prayers) that will give up her child for our family to be happy. We pray for a nameless, faceless girl who either already knows or will know soon that she is going to have a baby. She'll have to go through alot of soul searching and probably a lot of tears and fears before coming to total strangers to help her find other total strangers to take her baby. This is a weird thing to think about and even weirder to pray about.

Of course we pray for a baby of our own to raise and love and cherish. But when I pray for us I can't help pray for everyone involved and that includes the baby and the mother. I think our lives and the life of the baby will be happy but I pray for that girl too and the whole thing is bittersweet.

I know I can live without thinking about her most of the time however I know she will always be in the back of my mind. I don't ever want to forget to pray for her and whatever her life will bring.........God, bless her..........

Thursday, April 20, 2006

While Waiting:

A great qoute from Dr. Dobson:

“My concern is that many believers apparently feel God owes them smooth
sailing or at least a full explanation (and perhaps an apology) for the
hardships they encounter. We must never forget that He, after all, is
God. He is majestic and holy and sovereign. He is accountable to no
one. He is not an errand boy who chases the assignments we dole out.
He is not a genie who pops out of the bottle to satisfy our whims. He is
not our servant - we are His. And our reason or existence is to glorify
and honor Him. Even so, sometimes He performs mighty miracles on our
behalf. Sometimes He chooses to explain His action in our lives.
Sometimes His presence is as real as if we had encountered Him face to
face. But at other times, when nothing makes sense- when what we are going
through is ‘not fair,’ when we feel all alone in God’s waiting room - He simply
says, ‘Trust Me.’” James Dobson

Thursday, April 06, 2006

More Babies

There are alot of ladies checking in with the agency.....I pray that God places the right cildren with the right parents and the mothers are at peace with their decision. The problem is, as far as our situation, most of the girls want a fully open adoption. I understand their point of view--i guess I would too. We are not %100 opposed to it but we also don't want to say yes to that right off the bat.....it would only work if it were the right match.....I can't believe people would agree to a fully open adoption without even knowing how everyone will get along.....
We are leaving it all in God's hands...........

Monday, April 03, 2006

Lots of Babies

I e-mailed the agency to see what was happening over there. They have been very busy with babies being born and placed. I love to hear that they are busy (for selfish reasons) but it's also sad to know there are so many young girls out there unable to parent. Adoption is really a double edged sword.

Once when, I was in my early 20s, i had dinner with a girl that grew up across the street from me. We had been friends because of convienience really but we hadn't seen eachother in a long time and she wanted to show off her rich husband. She had married the guy who was to inherit the family business. The only thing is - his family owned quite a few funeral parlors in our city. I remember her saying at the time that they "loved to hear the scream of the ambulances down the street....it meant more business". It was meant to be a joke but I found it tasteless. How could anyone like that other people were suffering for their benefit? In a way I feel bad praying for someone to want to place their child for the same reason. I know it's a little different but I don't like the fact that one person has to give something precious up for our sake. God our Father, in His infinite wisdom, knows us and knows our hearts. He also knows I would never want to hurt someone so that our lives could be better......