I write here because there aren't too many people to talk to about all this. We have decided not to tell too many people until there is a match. Just like with IF, i don't want a lot of people asking a lot of questions to which there are no answers. I thought this blog was anonymous enough that i could say just about anything.....i was wrong. I guess there are one or two too many people reading this blog. So, i can't say what i'd like - all of it still must remain private, hidden, secret. Too much of my life if a secret but i guess for some that does not matter.....
For now we wait.....now in more silence. Praying for a nameless, faceless, hidden girl who will want to place her child with us. It's a deadly calm, a stillness that breaks my heart. A feeling like being in a boat with no land to see, no movement on the water and just the buzzing in my ears to occupy me.
posted by petunia @ 8:34 PM
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Maybe you could write a different blog with a different name then you would be able to write everything you need to write w/out fear of other people seeing it. Yahoo has a thing called 360° that is like an on line journal.
My hubby and I are going through treatment right now to become parents. If we don't succeed we too will be going through adoption. I hope that soon your gift from God will be ready for you to bring home to shower with love.
Take care.
Yea, maybe there is a way to change blogs to be more anonymous...
...best of luck!
Oh dear! I was wondering where a few of your posts went. Say no more. Feel free to email if you want to talk about things you think might be too specific!
I'm thinking of you and praying that your wait is short, because then it's on to the baby blog....where you can let it all hang out :-)
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