I finished the last page with a picture of us and a lot of quotes alkl around the picture and the outsede of the page - it's cute - they are all in different fonts.These are the quotes:


God loves each of us as if there were only one of us. ~St. Augustine

God is the perfect poet. ~Robert Browning

Life is God's novel. Let him write it. ~Isaac Bashevis Singer

There are no seven wonders of the world in the eyes of a child. There are seven million. ~Walt Streightiff

Try to learn something about everything and everything about something. ~T.H.Huxley

Happiness is a direction, not a place. ~Sydney J. Harris

Do not train a child to learn by force or harshness but direct them to it by what amuses their minds, so that you may be better able to discover with accuracy the peculiar bent of the genius of each. ~Plato

We cannot fashion our children after our desires, we must have them and love them as God has given them to us. ~Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

This will be the Baby's room....

If it's a girl we will keep all the flowers and frills. If it's a boy we will do something with sports....

basketballs are orange aren't they?

MOTHER'S Touch

My mother is going to start an afgan for the baby...she's so excited. She asked my for the colors for the baby's room and showed me the pattern. It's really weird.....she's been waiting a long time to do this....can't wait to see it!

We will have to find out who will watch our baby when he/she is placed with us. I don't know and i want to put it off as long as possible. I am hoping that our old pastors's wife can do it or our new neighbor (that would be ideal). Otherwise we are talking about day care and i really don't like that idea. Anyway, since not that many people know about the adoption- no one else is giving me any suggestions.
I just figure it will all work out....

ALMOST

We turned in our profile and had our last homestudy. The homestudy went great and everything is just fine. We just needed some feedback from Jo and Shirley about fixing whatever didn't work on the profile. There is a big list - but mostly misspelled words - surpize surprize!!! (hehe). So we will fix - get about 6 copies (for about $250-$300) and then turn those in for abour $4500....yikes! Then it's just the waiting!!

6 copies!!!!!!

I went to Kinkos and got a good copy of my profile - in a spiral binder - looks pretty good really but cost $25(just for the sample) She told me 6 of them laminated will be $230!!! There is so much pressure to make something that someone will like - do we have enough about ourselves - do the pictures look good of us - do they make us look like nice, good parents-does our house look good enough......and on and on.
Once that is approved all we ahve to do is wait......the hardest part that i have no control over.
Then when we get picked i have to watch as a girl/woman has to hand over their child to total strangers. I don't know if i can be in the room when that happens......i am already a mess. This isn't like handing over the title and keys to your car and watching someone drive off, this is so much more....too emotional. Sometimes i wish the child was in an orphanage so we would not have to witness such an act of......what? Bravery? self-lessness? selfishness?

Okay, i think the profile may be done. All but for a nice poem on the back.....don't know where to find that but i'm looking. I think i'll take it to a Kinkos and have them color copy it to see what it will look like.....SO much pressure. How do you show how wonderful you are in 10-15 pages?? I know what you are thinking - one picture of me and they will know how wonderful i am....but it's probably not that simple with strangers..... (lol)

WHat Is TOday?????

Oh my - it's been forever since i have even had time to look at this! I have been running around like a lunatic. I have worked dinner theater, shopped - taken my seniors on trips and had a concert. I will work 6 more times in 10 days, do a senior concert, take two trips and finally be put into a padded cell!

I got all my Christmas shopping done (except for my dad) TONIGHT. I started at 4:30 and just got home at 10pm. I am so proud that it's done now i just have to wrap - only if i could do it in my sleep.

On top of everything, my shoulder is KILLING me, i can't stop coughing and....and.....I'm sure there's more but i'm too tired to think about it.

One more home study on the 22nd and we will be done with that part....we will also hand over the first big check. I have deposited the amount in the bank from my secret stash so it won't be such a shock but i think the writing of the check will be just as much of a shock as it was to count out all that cash and put it in the bank......now i have to finish the profile.

whew! If i make it through December without keeling over....i'm good.

PS - AND i took a group to Nashville for three days &&& decorated the house! (see PIC below)

And they think we're crazy???

Scientologists believe that most human problems. can be traced to lingering spirits of an extraterrestrial people massacred by their ruler, Xenu, over 75 million years ago. These spirits attach themselves by "clusters" to individuals in the contemporary world, causing spiritual harm and negatively influencing the lives of their hosts.

Weird stuff huh? That ain't the half of it. This "religion" was started by a failed science fiction writer (you can tell by his writings about aliens)Ron L. Hubbard....and so he started his own religion. But it sure has attracted a lot of famous followers in Hollywood with ALOT of money.

Michael Pattinson was with the "church" for over 20 years and came out telling all. Anyone can google his name and find out his story...it's pretty interesting.
This copied from:
http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2005/12/02/1133422108779.html
Former Scientologists familiar with Hubbard's teachings on reincarnation say the symbol marks a "return point" so loyal staff members know where they can find the founder's works when they travel here in the future from other places in the universe.
"As a lifetime staff member, you sign a billion-year contract. It's not just symbolic," said Bruce Hines, who spent 30 years in Scientology but is now critical of it. "You know you are coming back and you will defend the movement no matter what … The fact that they would etch this into the desert to be seen from space, it fits into the whole ideology."
Scientology traces most of mankind's woes to an evil alien lord named Xenu, a galactic holocaust perpetrated 75 million years ago and the field of psychiatry. (The latter is a particular concern, as all of America now knows, of the actor Tom Cruise.)
The church maintains two other vaults, in California, to preserve Hubbard's materials and words, according to Hines and another former staff member who also quit a couple of years ago, Chuck Beatty.
"The whole purpose of putting these teachings in the underground vaults was expressly so that in the event that everything gets wiped out somehow, someone would be willing to locate them and they would still be there," says Beatty, who spent 28 years in Scientology. Some loyalists are given the "super-duper confidential" job of coming back to Earth in the far-off future, he adds.

Dreaming of money

I had a dream that we were in a church (very contemporary) and they let go balloons with eggs attached (plastic Easter eggs). No one really knew what was going on but i had just been told about this from someone else - i knew there were prizes in the eggs. Some had just candy and some had money. I grabbed one and all i had was candy. One woman found $80. Somehow i got distracted and i thought they were all gone. Then someone told me thery were still looking around for them in the back. I walked down the hallways and didn't see anyone until i came across a small classroom where there were three young girls playing. I looked in and saw 4 balloons that had come to rest (with the eggs) on the floor. I walked in and asked if they knew about them and they were totally clueless. I thought i better be nice and share - even though my instincts were to take them and run. I watched the kids open theirs and they all got candy. I opened mine and saw cash---i was so excited. I shuffled through and even saw a 1000 bill...i had to look twice at that. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it so i pocketed the money and got out of there. I kept trying to stop and count it and kept getting disrupted. I kept estimating $6,000, $8,000 and someone said one of the eggs had a quarted of a million dollars and i WOKE UP! (wishful thinking?, a preminition? delusional?.....)