Last night I had the most vivid dream. They called and said they were bringing our child over. Then they were there handing me a girl who looked about 2--beautiful with greenish eyes, cute long, brown hair and i even remember she seemed like she had a stuffy nose and i wondered if it was a permanent thing or if she had a cold. They told us her name was Azriel (or something very close - started with an a and had a z in it). I looked over at DH and he had that "i don't like it" look on his face. They seemed so excited we would keep her name so i asked "would you mind if we had that as her middle name and maybe called her by that if she wants that?"

There was a man and two women and assumed the mother and father of this girl was handing her off. I heard the man talking to the social worker in my hallway that the girls parents died of tracheal cancer and esophageal cancer. Then i walked into the bedroom and i asked the woman, i had thought was her mother, about the parents and she was crying. I remember i asked "are you okay?" and then i thought "of course, she's giving up this child she loves". Anyway, i started to be concerned that the child would have cancer too. And i kept thinking about not having an infant - but i was thinking "we can go through with another adoption and we'll have an infant and a toddler - that's perfect"
It was so real that when i woke up i had to remind myself it did not happen.
This is one of the first times i have ever dreamt about having a child.

**When i got to work this morning i looked up Azriel. I had never heard it before but it means "God is my Aid" in Hebrew - One website said it meant "Angel of God".....weird............!!!